Undertow

There's a way to go deep inside yourself through hypnotherapy. Over the last few years there's been a forward, backward, sideways and swirling movement to my life.

When I was focusing on what I was feeling I kept coming back to the thought of an undertow. The feeling of struggling against the wave but it pulling myself back in the more I struggled. After a while I started allowing my thoughts to just 'let go' and felt it swirling always back to the middle. When I discovered this I immediately went home and started sketching the idea of what I kept seeing in my mind. Swirling hooks that were not ominous but still strong.

A sense of beauty within the pull of the undertow. A feeling of slight fear but also joy.

The colours are representative of this feeling.

The different shades of blue go between serenity, fragility and predictability. The messy look to it breaks down the predictability.

The yellow is that feeling of happiness but also a slight level of deceipt. I've struggled over my lifetime with the initial view of something being welcoming but only to find out that it was not what it seemed.

The swirling motions are meant to provide a level of disassociation to the realities of life. Similar to watching your life pass in front of you as you live it. Close to drowning.